Lately I've been thinking a lot about balance. Balance between work and play, between maintaining friendships and spending time alone, between family and relationships. Like most people I struggle with trying to balance the various parts of my life, and sometimes I worry that I'm not doing a very good job.
I worry that I'm not being a good friend to the people who matter to me.
I worry that I'm not working hard enough or to my potential.
I worry that by frequently declining social invitations I will isolate myself and end up friendless and alone.
I worry that I don't spend enough time with my family, the people who mean the most to me.
Worry is such a persistent, mean little bugger. It gets into your head and refuses to get out, and as we all know, it isn't particularly constructive. At the same time, I believe that there is a lot I can learn about myself and life in general by wrestling with these issues. It is humbling, frustrating, and hard at times, but I am slowly learning to be kind to myself, and to be ok with everything not feeling neat and tidy all the time. Life in my late twenties feels a lot more complicated than when I was 19 (I know, I know, big surprise there:) but I wouldn't trade any of what I have now for those care free days.
I am so grateful for all of it, even the hard and messy parts.
I hope you're all having a great week and enjoying the chilly winter weather!
Thanks for reading dears.